“Seriously, I just can’t…”

I don’t know how your prayer life has been recently, but let me tell you, mine has been amazing.

I’m not saying this to brag. If anything, I’m actually quite ashamed that it’s taken a global pandemic to shake me out of complacency and help me see how desperately helpless I am to… well, control anything really.

I can’t save myself, only Jesus can.

A lot of my desperate prayers to the Lord these days begin with a rather pathetic plea as I cry out in frustration: “Seriously, I just can’t anymore!”. I can’t take the isolation caused by social restrictions. I can’t help but be discouraged by how weak my ministry looks. I can’t stay motivated and am so tempted to just not care anymore.

In a nutshell… I can’t. But fortunately… Jesus can.

In the run up to Easter I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about the Cross, and how it accomplishes what we simply cannot.

“In [Jesus] we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our sins, according to the riches of his grace… according to [God’s] purpose, which he set forth in Christ as a plan for the fullness of time, to unite all things in him, things in heaven and things on earth.” Ephesians 7-10

I mean, that’s pretty epic if you ask me. I hope this doesn’t sound trite, but I genuinely find comfort in knowing that I have everything I need in Jesus.

What do I do when I feel helpless and can’t save myself from the troubles I find myself in? I remember the only one who can bring ultimate salvation. I remind myself not to lose the plot and waste energy focusing on all these little things that don’t really matter in the light of eternity.

Perspective helps, doesn’t it? I can’t save myself, only Jesus can. And at the end of the day, he’s all I need.

What a joy it is to be a Christian. This Easter, I pray that you too will be able to find your all in Jesus Christ.

Pastoral Worker