Growing up, I had many opportunities to hear about the Christian faith, but I chose not to accept it. Still, whenever friends invited me to listen to sermons, I kept an open mind and went along.
Later, I moved to Australia for further studies. The pressure was intense, and it stirred up all kinds of unhealthy thoughts and anxieties. Interestingly, that’s also when I started dating my Christian girlfriend, who would later become my wife. She shared her faith with me, and I would listen to her attentively like a child. I could sense her peace and calmness, making me wonder where the peace came from. Looking back, I now see that God was beginning to enlighten me and gently draw me closer to him.
But when I returned to Hong Kong, everything began to unravel. At work, I felt so demoralised and wrestled with the fear of people. I fell into depression and tried to numb myself in all kinds of ways; obsessing over my appearance, questioning my identity, and turning to lust and pornography.
His grace has proven more than sufficient for my weakness
My wife saw my struggle and prayed for me. She brought me to church, and over the years something began to change. I slowly came to understand that although God created us in his image, yet sin has deeply distorted our hearts. I had spent years insisting on my own way, wanting full control of my life without God. But through those painful seasons, it became clear that I could not save or sustain myself. My own brokenness defeated me again and again.
Yet Scripture showed me the heart of the God I had been running from: holy and righteous, yet abounding love, slow to anger, and rich in grace. My heart softened. I was confronted by the love of Jesus, who gave his life for my sins. I asked myself, “How could I not put my faith in him, who loves me so much?”
Overwhelmed by the burden I could no longer carry, I cried out to him. I prayed, confessing how far I had wandered and asking for his forgiveness and acceptance. I thought of Peter sinking in the Sea of Galilee and prayed, “Lord, I’m drowning. Please save me.” And he did.
Since putting my faith in Jesus and becoming his child, I have experienced a growing peace and joy I never had before. I still face struggles at work and battle with sin, but now I bring them to God in prayer. I’ve seen him answer with unexpected kindness, softening the hearts of others and guarding my own.
God’s healing in my life has been real. His grace has proven more than sufficient for my weakness.
